In the late nights of my thinking some times I ponder. What is the most reckless thing you can do with your heart? I have come to a lot of answers that seem logical in my brain, such as trust someone you know might hurt you, etc. But as I continued to think about this I found that the most reckless thing you can do with your heart is to not be reckless with it. In my brain it doesn’t seem logical, but in my heart it makes perfect sense.
I decided to sit down and write this post to my outstanding audience of 0, to anyone who could possibly be listening. The remaining piece of Life, something that I’ve always thought deeply about in my life. So much to the point where I had to take a painstaking break from thinking about anything remotely close to the subject for a while. So what is the true meaning of the remaining piece of Life you ask? well the truth is I don’t know. For me what I have theorized in my hours of thinking in bed at 4 am with only the stars as my company, is that the remaining piece of life is what you have the raw un edited truth of who you are skin, bones and soul. When the moon melts the sun at the end of the day and you lay your head on your pillow no matter what happened that day, whether it was one of the worst or one of the best days of your life. The remaining piece of life is you. You are your own remaining piece of life. I know this might be slightly confusing but, For example recently I have gone through an earth shattering, life altering, awful to put it lightly experience for the last 6 months. How did I handle my life falling a part one piece at a time (Seriously not an over exaggeration) you ask? In the worst moments I recognized how I am the remaining piece of life. No matter how much goes wrong who leaves, who comes into your life, where you go and where you can’t go. In the end you’re always there, and it always ends with you.
You can say you feel alone but the real meaning of loneliness is not present until your darkest loneliest moment in life, that one moment that makes you truly rethink your decisions and your purpose. The moment when you realize you only have yourself, the only person who can understand you is yourself. What people generally don’t understand is the fact that being that alone in the present time is a real thing, it is a real consequence of the life that you have chosen for yourself. You need to break free of your own shield that is keeping you from being okay.